Sparks , both fire and electric . The first time our eyes met , the first time I noticed your presence, the feeling was sparked .
It was weird becaue I felt like I was under someones gaze . When I knew that it was yours , I felt surprised that someone like you would notice me . I was curios , I wanted to see you and approach you so my heart could question me . But alas, I missed my chance . I was too afraid like I've always been , fear was my mutual companion . I tried to look for you again and maybe just be able to flash a smile and carve one on your face . Just so you would know that I was there , to leave a mark on your day . But I was too late . Regret crawled into my mind everytime I remember you.
After the incident of epic sparks , I wanted to find you . I was hopeful even when I didn't know where to even start . Then , a ray of dim sunlight appeared when my lads were talking about this girl . I took a look at who she was , then a name showed up and I was again curious to who this mysterious persona was. I didn't know that the one in the picture was you . And the stories they tell seemed to say that you were within their grasp . So I just , stored that piece of memory in the back of my head . Seizing any unwanted interest. Giving the opportunity for thoughts to come .
A few months later , a name appeared on my screen. Chucky . I could absolutely not recognised who this was until I saw the phrase "don't ask me about my life" . The memory popped up like the first drop of rain . Small but would lead to something bigger. That phrase was the only way I remembered . The image of you from our first encounter was still in my mind toying with me as if it was provoking me with hopelessness. Then she wrote a thanks for me . In which I took advantage of to find out who she was . She knew who I was, with me knowing nothing about her . Apart that my friend was interested in her. I was again fuelled with the feeling to find out.
I asked her where I've know her from . Maybe vice versa . Then , an answer came . But I still wasn't sure . But though I was uncertain . I was happy that hope was still there. It was crazy to think that the girl I fell for actually found me. Me . With my luck and everything it was never going to happen . But it did . You found me . The exact girl I met on the 11th of September during shooting practice whom laid her beutiful eyes upon me has found me . I went crazy that day . Crazy of happiness and disbelief.
You found me . But I somehow knew that it wasn't going to last if I just did nothing hoping that you would make the first move . Hoping that everything was just going to happen magically in my way . I already noted that I'm already out of miracles. Magic and luck was no longer siding with me . So I did something that I never had the guts to do . I gathered courage accompanied by determination that you were the one I've been waiting for . I was actually brave enough to confess my feelings to you . I made the first move. I only known you for a few days back then and you had already made me come out of my comfort zone and become brave . There is just something special about you that made me know that you are worth it . You were worth it . For me to be brave and just follow my heart .
I was expecting a heartbreak due to my usual odds . But that did not happen . You were defying odds . My odds .
Then you said that just being my crush won't last . I panicked that I was going to lose you. So in an attempt to say "please , I want you to stay in my life , you're important . I want you to be the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last when I go to sleep . And still be dreaming about you . Please .. "
You made me wait . It was devastating to wait . I kept screaming inside my head and running ridiculous scenarios . What would you answer ? Yes? No ? Stop contacting me and ignore me ? I kept swinging between feelings . Made me dazed
When you finally answered . Let's just say that I didn't stop smiling like an idiot for the rest of the day .
The first time you said the lahve thing . My whole face lit up . I was just lovestruck.
Cheesy line approaching
You're just the best. Eventhough I always say that you're cute I've always admired that you're beautiful . Your eyes just make a statement of compassion and you can just tell stories with your smile. You're understanding , caring , tolerant and you just get me .
If this ever backfires on me . I just want you to know that my feelings for you are true . You know the thing I say to you almost everyday . Hahahaha
It's funny that I wrote this much and it is still not enough .
i wrote this at 3 am btw
Can't stop thinking of you.
I'm just .
