It's me again .

So , the most cliché and pathetic thing to do right now is that the guy who was seriously in love is now feeling depressed and wants to end it.
Well, i may not have both of my feet facing that direction but you know what i mean . When you feel like you are the only one trying . This sounds stupid and redundant i know . If you knew me in real life and read my ffin blog you would take a second look at me. Maybe three because you laughed so hard the first two times .
But there you have it. The dude who wrote for his girl at 3 am is now having second thoughts about wether he should just try to hold on or just try to put a stop to his feelings. Wow that sound pretty dumb and unlike me. Or alike me ? I personally don't have the time to think about it anymore . I am now picturing people reading this and just smiling for and at me .
If somehow you are reading this, I just want to tell you that I really still find myself as an enigma . I won't know what will happen next. 
If you know me in real life, just read this as if I'm joking

I don't want to end anything because I intend to keep my promises . Especially those I made for myself . To not let you go this way . But if I do ... I won't.
I know your game btw , how you plan to do this . It is so important that you know that i think it is quite good. I've been holding back and not entirely the ideal guy . But I can tell you this .. It takes two to tango and two to win .